Trudgery

Its been a week of walking through mud. the thick, deep, mucky variety. there is a part of me that really hates this. I had always assumed that contrary to my pre-deep life, the deep, along with its unending flow and broadband connection to the universal oneness, was full of ease and grace and early bedtimes. peak experiences and divine masterpieces - isn't that what all this living in the moment and lentils and deep breathing is all about?

but this isn't the first time that all my guidance, and direction has led me straight into a week of seriously hard slog. wading through details. starting again and again. logistical nightmares. and more of that naughty retrograde messenger disturbing the launch of my new windows 7 upgrade.

it seems that the deep is not without its moments of just applying oneself as hard as ever. without too much doubt or too many tea breaks.

but there is one important difference. the not inconsiderable complexities of this week were mine. and this hard slog was completely on my terms. it played to my capabilities. my passions. it involved the things I love. and creating the things I want to create. how I want it. in the house I built. in the country I want to live in. in the company I want to build. and in the end there still was, as one might have expected, a glorious result.

as I sat in the mesmerising cool of tropical August to reflect on this strange occurrence I realised how beautifully the old earth will seamlessly evolve into the new one. I'd worked as hard as I had when I was in the old world this week and used all those old persistence, resilience, focus skills to just get through it and get it done. AND I'd produced an end product just the same as I would have before.

but this time the end product was a completely and totally meaningful effort - another baby step on the journey that is my totally meaningful life expressing itself. the result was mine. me manifesting and being a little bit more and more. another personal mystery unfolding before my eyes. another dimension revealing itself. another potential unravelling. just the way I like it. and for THAT result a little trudgery is so worth it.